Oh my goodness. This is so raw. I feel this, even though I don't have kids and have never been divorced.
I stayed in my last relationship far too long, partly because I was not financially independent. And let me be clear about that: I was a teacher with a master's degree, but my boyfriend, who had never gone to college, made three times as much as I did at his job. I don't know what to say except: Wage gap! And yet, I felt terrible about myself for putting myself in that position - as if it was my fault. It really wasn't. I worked hard. I have an advanced degree. It should not have played out that way.
Sending you strength and love. xoxo