Shela Ostara I am so sorry you have gone through this. I can relate so deeply. I was with a conservative, born-again Christian throughout my thirties (my last fertile years), and I willingly stripped off all my wildness to conform to his need for a tame partner and willingly set aside my dream of a family because he was hesitant about making that decision. And then he left me for a younger woman just before I turned 40.
It took me years to process that trauma, but I’m finally finding my inner wolf once again! I know you will, too! ❤