This is incredibly vulnerable and beautiful. There's a part of me that wants to take this point by point and say something reassuring, but I'm also trying to resist that because I don't want to insert myself into this very personal journey you are on.
I will say, though, that I think you are doing everything right. You are paying attention to yourself, your body, your needs. You are aware of what has caused you hesitation. You are taking it slowly. You are making sure you are clear about your needs. That is all any of us can do.
Beautiful. xoxo