This is really beautiful and vulnerable. It takes me back to the last three years in my former relationship, which ended because we were ultimately not a great match. At all. LOL. But I remember the discomfort and sorrow and confusion and pain of that time so well. It's so hard because there SO MUCH emotion, SO MUCH of the good AND the bad.

Anyways, I'm so sorry you are going through but I know you will find your way and I also commend you for being so open and honest about it - I agree that we should share more honestly about our situations because so many of us can relate and it helps us throw away this ridiculous idea of the perfect relationship!