Why do your comments always make me teary? LOL. That quote was incredibly beautiful. I will write that one down so I don't forget.

"At this point in my life" is, I think, the realization of not having enough time left to do the one thing in my life I always thought I would do. It's fine, in a way, because I don't necessarily think that is the best path for me anymore - not now, anyways - and so... I don't know how to describe it to a man. Or at all, really. That part of life is ending and I didn't get it all done before my time ran out. So there's such a huge part of me that feels like an ending. That feels OLD and struggling to figure out what to do now.

It's just lots to ponder and figure out over a very long transition. :)

BTW, thank you so much for being someone who reinforces that I don't have to keep my expectations at rock bottom. LOL. I really appreciate you.